By Montaja Simmons
I struggle with worry and fear, mostly of being embarrassed or judged… the interesting thing is, I can push through the social anxiety. My nervousness looks like- chattiness…overly smiling, making jokes…charm… it all looks like I’m comfortable and confident. Really it’s my struggle with being present and in the moment, I’m not even thinking or feeling (its a bizarre state of being). The real challenge is the coming down after the event, the post event worries that get me. Thoughts that keep me up at night…replaying what I think happened and how I made myself look silly 😖, it hurts, I lose sleep over it…I never knew what to call it. I found out it’s social anxiety called “Post-event Rumination”…boy do I ruminate! It’s nice to name things (makes you feel less alone) however it’s still a challenge to over come them…I working on it.
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